RISE

you whisper poison in my ear

you feed me doubt and feed me fear

i won’t swallow what you say

i’ll spit it out and make you pay

you thought i’d break

you thought i’d beg

you thought i’d crawl away

and lay down my head

rise up

strike back

rise up

fight back

i’ll spit the blood back in your face

tell me how fucking bitter does it taste

you thought that the damage made me less

i just forged a blade from this mess

you thought i’d break

you thought i’d beg

you thought i’d crawl away

and lay down my head

rise up

strike back

rise up

fight back

RECOVERY

never should have listened

‘cause look at where it got me

i laughed while i burned

it felt like control

i tore out the ballast

just to feel whole

you said i’d find peace

if i learned to let go

so i buried everything

that ever made me whole

you were right

i’m finally free

from the weight

of being me

can’t tell if i’m healing or hiding

can’t tell if i’m living or lying

maybe i’m fine, maybe i’m not

but at least i finally forgot

there’s comfort in the crash

a grace in the relapse

i sabotage my sunrise

just to keep the night intact

i laughed while i drowned

it felt like control

i tore out the mess

couldn’t ever be whole

you said i’d find peace

if i learned to let go

so i dropped everything

that made me feel whole

you were right

i’m finally free

from the weight

of being me

can’t tell if i’m healing or hiding

can’t tell if i’m living or lying

maybe i’m fine, maybe i’m not

but at least i finally forgot

SUGARCOAT

fill the void in every crack

smile ‘till the mirror smiles back

sip the poison, call it wine

tell myself i’m doing fine

if they want a light, i’ll let it show

a pretty glow from down below

i sugarcoat, i shine, i sell the lie

polish the wreck until it looks divine

i’m burning pretty, still dead inside

at least i make the darkness look alive

tell me i’m better, i’ll nod along

truth tastes bitter, this one’s strong

i dance on bones, it looks like grace

i keep the cracks in perfect place

if they want a light, i’ll let it show

a pretty glow from down below

i sugarcoat, i shine, i sell the lie

polish the wreck until it looks divine

i’m burning pretty, still dead inside

at least i make the darkness look alive

SLEEPWALKER

your eyes keep drawing shapes

of a world that isn’t real

the shadows lean in close

‘cause they know the way you feel

you swear the walls are breathing

but they only echo back

you’re slippin’ past the edges

falling through the cracks

come down

let the dark unwind you

lay your head

and i’ll slip behind you

you’re talking to reflections

that don’t know your name

your breath is making patterns

every thought feels strange

your pulse is drawing halos

where the silence bends

just close your eyes a moment

let the night make sense

come down

let the dark unwind you

lay your head

and i’ll slip behind you

you’re seeing fissures

‘cause what you think is waking

is a dream

that is trying to blind you

ASHES TO ASHES

i crawled through glass just to feel alive

broke my own heart to see if it would survive

the mirror screams but i can’t reply

who am i who am i who am i

no gods, no kings, no savior in sight

just shadows that mock me in the moon light

burn it down, burn it all

watch it end, watch me fall

ashes to ashes, worn and gray

no one’s coming anyway

there is a hole where my dreams go to drown

hum like lullabies as they pull me down

the clock’s a liar, it scars my skin

time is a cage and i’m rotting within

no gods, no kings, no savior tonight

just shadows that mock me in the moonlight

burn it down, burn it all

watch it end, watch me fall

ashes to ashes, worn and gray

no one’s fucking here anyway

ECHO

there was comfort in the noise

in the fracture of my voice

now the silence feels too clean

like a room i’ve never seen

walls without a mark

no evidence of where i’ve been

this quiet is a stranger

that is wearing me thin

there was comfort in the noise

in the fracture of my name

now the silence feels too clean

and i don’t feel the same

PARASITE

you crawl beneath my skin again

a comfort i cannot comprehend

i feel you moving when i breathe

i don’t know what belongs to me

you wear my guilt like a second skin

you are not who i want to be

but you keep fuckin’ feeding on me

every drop you take, i come undone

i think i used to be someone

you taught me how to crave the break

to find a reason in the ache

i’d tear you out but all i’d find

is you and i, intertwined

you wear my shame like a second skin

you are not who i want to be

but you keep fuckin’ feeding on me

every drop you take, i come undone

i think i used to be someone

i used to be someone

you are not who i wanna be

but you are living inside of me

every wound you left, i still feed from

i used to be someone

FAULTLINE

the room is quiet but i still shake

a phantom weight i can’t unmake

i mouth the words i never said

and watch them bleed through threads of red

the fracture’s running underneath

the things i swore i’d never breathe

i pull the thread and feel it slip

like skin that’s shedding from my grip

i taste the metal in my mouth

and know the worst is coming out

something buried starts to speak

a broken current, thin and weak

it crawls along my withered spine

and hums a truth that isn’t mine

it tells me where the fault began

the part of me that never ran

the part that learned to stay unseen

and rot beneath the inbetween

and i can’t stop it

no i can’t stop it

the deeper i sink

the louder it gets

HUNGER

come as you are: half-broken and slow

i want the parts you never show

i taste the bruise around your neck

you’re easiest when you’re a wreck

don’t rise, don’t run

you know my voice

you come to me as if you had a choice

i spread you open without a sound

you’ll learn to love the way you’re drowned

you can try to stand but you kneel so well

you wear my hunger like a private hell

your quiet tremblin’ gives you away

you crave the wounds you swear you hate

i watch you drop down when i draw near

your ruin blooms the moment you’re here

don’t rise, don’t run

you know my voice

you come to me as if you had a choice

i spread you open without a sound

you'll learn to love the way you’re drowned

you can try to stand but you kneel so well

you wear my hunger like a private hell

you fall the same each time you lie

i devour the parts you hoped would die

nothing you are is meant to survive

i am the hunger you never deny

EMPTY FRAME

you said i look just like before

same face, same eyes, same quiet war

but you don’t see the missing part

the hollow space where i fell apart

i leaned my lines, i play along

i hum the tune, i mouth the song

your pity’s cheap, your comfort’s fake

i feed the hole you couldn’t face

i watch myself from far away

the borrowed face begins to stay

hollow but breathing and emptied alive

left just the frame: nothing inside

i shed the skin that held me still

felt it break against my will

whatever left me in the night

took the part that used to fight

i haunt the place you left behind

and drift like something undefined

no more hunger, no release

just a slow mechanical peace

i watch myself from far away

the borrowed face begins to fray

something keeps moving, wearing my name

nothing inside an empty frame

you said i look just like before

but i don’t dream that way anymore

STAY

cheap little choices chew the day in half

pick a flavor, pick a mask, pick a better laugh

counting seconds like they matter, like they ever did

the body moves, the mind cannot seem to commit

yeah, i know the drill

bite down and sit still

i keep surviving out of spite

laughing at the oversight

the universe says ‘carry on’

like i don’t know what joke it’s one

same old breath; same old fight

yeah, i’m still here - ain’t that a sight

routine’s a razor dressed up as relief

tiny motions stitching over disbelief

i make a ritual out of staying here

a petty mark born out of fear

yeah, i know the drill

bite down and lie still

i keep surviving out of spite

laughing at the oversight

a holy war fought silently

over fucking scraps of me

same old breath; same old fight

yeah, i’m still here - ain’t that a sight

ECHO CHAMBER

you built this room to keep me in

but i outlasted oxygen

my name still hums beneath your skin

you scrub and scrub; i seep back in

i am the hum inside your wires

the ghost that lives inside your desires

you burn me out, i caught the spark

now i light your house in the dark

you still hear me - don’t pretend

i live inside your pretty head

you shut me out, i sneak back in

and whisper back again

you trace my outline on the floor

each time you fade, i’m at your door

you pray for peace, i send you noise

you beat me once, i took your voice

i am the hum inside your wires

the taste that lingers, never tires

you burn me out, i caught the spark

now i light your house in the dark

you still hear me - don’t pretend

i live inside your broken head

you shut me out, i barge back in

and whisper back again

you built this cage for me

now you can’t sleep

DOWN BELOW

something in me

won’t release

quiet breach

underneath

feel it thin

feel it leak

in my head

something speaks

i stay still so it can pass

but it settles where i am

i stay still so it can pass

now it knows where i am

something in me

down below

something in me

won’t let go

something in me

cut the feed

no relief

can’t breathe

pressure builds

can’t retreat

in my head

something treads

i stay still so it can pass

but it settles where i am

i stay still so it can pass

now it knows where i am

something in me

down below

something in me

won’t let go

something in me

down below

something in me

took control

ERASE

the walls remember what i’ve erased

somethin’ else still wears my face

i scrape the paint until i bleed

even silence ignores me

i can’t wash it off; i can’t burn it clean

i keep fallin’ apart where no one can see

every sound becomes all the same

even they forget my name

i’m tracing ghosts that bear my name

pullin’ teeth to feel the shame

my light still burns but never wakes

i hold my breath until it breaks

it’s all decay, it’s all decay

it’s all decay, i’m not okay

i made this mess and i’ll run away

i can’t wash it off; i can’t burn it clean

i keep fallin’ apart where no one can see

every sound becomes all the same

even they forget my name

RESIDUE